flashbacks...

A nice sunday off back at home has helped brought some stability and routine back to life...house now nice and clean, laundry hanging out on the line, chill-out-on-sofa-lazing time and a dose of Good Will Hunting.

With housemate off to discover China for a week with visiting family (envious :)), some time to think and reflect- past, present, future.

Sometimes too much time for pondering draws out old shadows and skeletons but also helps appreciation of what I have now. I like being out again, I like being able to explore China, I still like my job and what I am doing. I miss my ol friends but I will see them again; back to Belgium on July 15th-30th.

I still dread uncertainties but appreciate surprises, I still face ups and downs but am learning to deal with them. I still face a prob with self-discipline, timelines and dealing with pressures but less of self hammering and self guilt for not being to do what I can't. I'm still me, needing a hug sometimes, people to chat and discuss with, discovering what I am within.

Not everything can be perfect but it's ok even superman has his cyptonite.